I never asked to be healed.

I didn’t even know that I needed Jesus and His Healing Presence.

I never asked to belong to Jesus and His Church.

Yet Jesus never stops pursuing.

In God’s great mercy and love, He brought me into the Church and sobriety at the same time. It was an overwhelmingly incredible experience. I had not been praying for this. I honestly don’t recall uttering a single prayer except when I was a very small child, and only at bedtime. It was more ‘cute’ than meaningful, and very short-lived.

In the rooms of Recovery there is a real shared mystery of having been ‘struck sober’ by God. It seems to me that this phenomenon exists in the most seemingly hopeless cases, and this was my personal experience, at least the first time around. Regardless of the circumstances, there still remains a lifetime of ‘one-day-at-a-time’ work ahead of each of us. This is where the real lasting experience of freedom is exposed, little by slowly. The intimate experiences of daily encounters with God, which transcend all human understanding, are continually expressed as ‘living gratitude.’

Thanks be to God, He knew that I would need every single one of my experiences to find my way back to Him. And this I know will continue to be true for me until the day He calls me home.

I would like to invite you to please stay tuned, as I have recently been given the freedom to share the entirety of my story with the hope that you may find yourself in some parts of it, or perhaps all of it. My firm belief is that you will walk away convinced that you have never suffered alone, and that your suffering has great purpose in bringing about His Kingdom here on earth and for all eternity. I also believe that you will experience a ‘knowing’ in the depths of your heart that you truly belong to this group of souls who are walking with you in intercessory prayer and divine fellowship.

The Holy Spirit has been inspiring me from the beginning of my faith journey, approaching 31 years now, to journal all that my Scripture Study and prayer meditation are revealing. I attempt daily to deeply connect with the gratitude I have for this awesome gift. God can renew and restore all that was lost, or non-existent, prior to the practice of ‘seeking Him with all my heart.’ (Jeremiah 29:11-13) My goal as a wife, mother, author and sister in Christ is to share the insights I have received to all who struggle or know someone struggling with any form of addiction to mind altering substances and/or addiction to people; codependency, enabling and the necessity of practicing loving boundaries in all of our relationships.

I will always continue to share free content, as I have been, for my subscribers.  God has called me to author books and articles, my first book will be available later this month. (I am including a picture of the cover) In addition to my free subscription I will soon offer a paid subscription section for those who want to dive deeper into this daily walk. In this paid subscription section I will share my life story, excerpts from books I am publishing, private chat opportunities and audio posts to aid us in our ‘daily renewal of the mind’, as Saint Paul encourages. (Romans 12:1,2)

However you decide to follow my content, I am honored that you are here. I am grateful for your prayers and support. Be assured of my prayers for you and your families. We are blessed to encounter the living God in the daily moments of our lives.

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